Share Your Journey

This is a place where I hope that as you read about my miracles that you may want to share your stories as well. Every validation no matter how grand or how small will lift your heart. Please leave your comments or email them to me at gayleguadagnolo@gmail.com , and I will share them too.

My husband and I were living the ultimate American dream. We had a wonderful family and were proud parents of four beautiful sons. We were so busy enjoying and living life. It was springtime and everything was a buzz as we were making final plans to support two of our boys; who were members of the Syracuse University Men’s lacrosse team, as they competed in the National Championship Games. Then without warning our lives were shattered. Everything that we knew and trusted was ripped from our grasp leaving this unimaginable gaping hole. In the spring of 2008 our son Aaron was killed in a motorcycle accident.

At that time I was not convinced by any stretch of the imagination that there was anything after death, but I also could not accept that he was taken from us. I knew that I had to find a way to fix this horrible tragedy, but how? The hurt was indescribable. I just could not get my head around that this was it, he was gone. How could that be? He was our son, he was supposed to be with us, we were supposed to take care of him and protect him. This pain was too much.

A few months after Aaron’s death I met a Medium, Melanie May and as we later learned, our meeting was completely orchestrated by Aaron. I was reluctant to trust in the abilities of a medium but on the other hand, I would do anything, take any risk to try to get my son back in anyway that I could have him. When I met with Melanie, she told me things that changed my life completely again. She told me things from my son that no one else could know. She told me specific thoughts that I had had about a book that I was reading, and she described in detail the plaque that his dad was making to honor his life. When speaking on the phone she told me right down to the color of the clothes that I was wearing, where I was standing at the moment and the description and color of the coffee cup in my hand. The messages from Aaron that he told Melanie to relay to me were specific and current. He told her to tell me these things so that I would trust that it was really him, and that he was still with me only in a different form. This experience was so foreign yet so very consistent with his personality and his way of doing things. Aaron was always bigger than life. You knew he was there even before he entered the room. With Aaron, if you knew him, you got all of him, all great big 6’3, here I am package. So, his methods of getting his messages to me and the things that he told Melanie were as if he were right there in the room with me. He was so insistent and demanding at times that Melanie would start to shake if she tried to put off his requests for her to call me.

Aaron told us that there was a much bigger picture to all of what has happened. Part of this bigger picture is that I would write about my miraculous journey, to help others to know that our loved ones are still with us, only their physical life ends. My journey of miracles has happened so that I could know that my son is still very much with me and with us all. I have documented each miracle and message, they are true and as they happened. Many times I would doubt that this could really be happening, thinking that I have made up each message because it is what I so desperately wanted to hear, only to receive the next validation proving to me again and again that he is there.

I have found my son again, or I should say that he has found me and at his insistence I have opened my heart and my mind to this different world.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Keep Believing

Well it's been pretty quiet around here.  Not many messages from my boy.  However, that might not be exactly true.  I do know that he sends messages to me all of the time; it's me who is just not receiving them.  
So, it is now more important than ever to keep believing.  This is when I need to take a moment to look around and notice him.  Soak in all of the  things that remind me of Aaron.  This is when I am so grateful that I work with Melanie and can talk to the many different people that call her office each day, sometimes telling me their stories or just sharing their need to connect with their loved ones.  This is what keeps me going.  The stories that I hear, the messages that they share, may not be specifically from my son to me, but they lift my heart and my spirit just the same.  Yes, I am reassured again today, that our loved ones are still with us.

Monday, June 6, 2011

The Wedding

Our niece was married in a most beautiful event this weekend. Everything was perfect.  Family and friends were there.  Sometimes its so hard to imagine these milestone events in our lives knowing that Aaron will not be at them.
The morning after the wedding  were sitting outside of the hotel having coffee with many of our family and enjoying the beautiful scenery of the lake.  As we sat, a blue heron flew back and forth in front of us.  The heron flew back and forth, over and over repeatedly as if wanting to make sure that none of us missed him.  The blue heron is the bird that Aaron sends to us to let us know that he is there.