Well, I haven't had much to write on the blog about over the past several weeks and that makes me very sad. This being an extremely busy time of year for me; I don't seem to receive many messages from Aaron. I know that it is because of me; the fact that I am running constantly, too busy to sit quietly and take it all in; and not because he is not sending any messages. But, when he is quiet I start to get anxious and worried that he will stop communicating. Even though my logical brain knows better than that and I do feel him all of the time, my heart and my "mom" me, become sadder as each day goes by. My friend; Melanie has her own stuff going on right now and she hasn't heard anything from his either, which only compounds my feelings. We both keep saying "Where are you Aaron, we need some of your wonderful spirit". But nothing! He must be busy or maybe this is another lesson that I am supposed to learn. This, I think is part of the meaning of faith. You can't always touch it, feel it, see it, but you keep believing because you know that it is there. It is not always easy to have faith, to say the least, and for me it seems to be a lesson that will be ongoing.
And then yesterday afternoon.....
I was meeting Melanie for a quick lunch while I was running around getting supplies for my next event. We were both going to be on the same side of town so we decided to meet for a quick bite and to catch up. On the way, my youngest son, Jeffrey called me and since he had a break from classes for a while he decided that he would join us too. (He also needed to hit me up for some college cash- I wonder if that had anything to do with the impromptu visit ? hmmm.) But, neither one of us cared what Jeffrey's real motives were, we were glad to have him with us and for the time to sit and catch up with him.
Jeffrey was getting ready to head back to school after some good food and some good talk and all of a sudden Melanie asked him who's jacket did he have on. He was wearing a lacrosse jacket that had the number 42 on it. Jeffrey said that it was either Kyle's or Thomas' from school. Melanie said that Aaron was telling her that it was his and as she looked at the number 42 on the jacket, he was showing her by making the numbers glow. Melanie said that Aaron said that it was his number. Melanie looked at Jeffrey and I with a confused look on her face. "Why is he telling me that it's his?" Melanie had no way of knowing because she did not know us back then, but all four of the boys always wore the number 42.
That's all I needed. Just a quick hello from him to let us know that he is with us. It's not the message that is always so important, but who is sending it. Keep the faith.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
What can I say?
Last Friday evening, my friend; intuitive medium, Melanie held an Open Reading session. This is where a group of people sit together and she will relay messages from their loved ones or people connected to them. I haven't heard much from Aaron in the past couple of weeks and this particular night I did not hear from him either which is not typical. He keeps telling Melanie that I don't need her abilities to know that he is with me; that I know this for myself now, however I am not buying into that at all, I know that I need her. But, I also do know that he has been sending signs to me, that I am sure of.
On Friday afternoon, before the Open Reading, I got in the car to run some errands. As I started to drive out of my driveway, I noticed this ever so tiny, green head of a bug looking at me from over the top of my windshield wipers. It was so tiny but I knew that it was looking right at me through the glass. I stopped the car, got out and looked and there was this very small dragon fly. ( Aaron sends dragon flies as a sign from him) It turned its head as I came around to it as if it were following me, then it flew away. I was thrilled to see this sign from Aaron, yet I was feeling greedy, I wanted more, even just a quick hello from him passed on from Melanie. So, I went to the Open Reading and it was amazing as usual. The messages that came through for the people there, were astounding. But, nothing from Aaron. Even though I did not hear from Aaron, it is still very affirming and uplifting to witness this connection for everyone there, but I have to admit that I was a little disappointed not to hear from my son. Melanie said that he must be busy because it seems that every time that there is something big going on in the world, he becomes quite, so we think that there are others that need him more than me right now with the anniversary of 9/11.
The next morning I arrived at Beaver Lake for an event that I was working. As I approached my trailer that I work out of and went to unlock the door, there sitting near the lock was a single dragon fly, as if it was just waiting for me to arrive and say good morning and do you "get" it now? I guess that Aaron had another lesson for me this day. I really had to go back and appreciate the miraculous effort that he makes to contact me, no matter how small or how big. It's not for me to dictate or be disappointed that the connection is not in the manner that I was looking for, but to accept any sign, in any way that I get from Aaron and to cherish each and every one.
On Friday afternoon, before the Open Reading, I got in the car to run some errands. As I started to drive out of my driveway, I noticed this ever so tiny, green head of a bug looking at me from over the top of my windshield wipers. It was so tiny but I knew that it was looking right at me through the glass. I stopped the car, got out and looked and there was this very small dragon fly. ( Aaron sends dragon flies as a sign from him) It turned its head as I came around to it as if it were following me, then it flew away. I was thrilled to see this sign from Aaron, yet I was feeling greedy, I wanted more, even just a quick hello from him passed on from Melanie. So, I went to the Open Reading and it was amazing as usual. The messages that came through for the people there, were astounding. But, nothing from Aaron. Even though I did not hear from Aaron, it is still very affirming and uplifting to witness this connection for everyone there, but I have to admit that I was a little disappointed not to hear from my son. Melanie said that he must be busy because it seems that every time that there is something big going on in the world, he becomes quite, so we think that there are others that need him more than me right now with the anniversary of 9/11.
The next morning I arrived at Beaver Lake for an event that I was working. As I approached my trailer that I work out of and went to unlock the door, there sitting near the lock was a single dragon fly, as if it was just waiting for me to arrive and say good morning and do you "get" it now? I guess that Aaron had another lesson for me this day. I really had to go back and appreciate the miraculous effort that he makes to contact me, no matter how small or how big. It's not for me to dictate or be disappointed that the connection is not in the manner that I was looking for, but to accept any sign, in any way that I get from Aaron and to cherish each and every one.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Sunflowers
This is the weekend that I have a booth at the Beaver Lake Golden Harvest Festival and it brings to mind one of my favorite moments.
I was getting ready to leave to work at the Golden Harvest Festival; it was the year following Aaron's death and I was still pretty much in a fog. I hadn't quite adjusted myself to always be on the look out for signs and I don't think that I was totally convinced that we all "get" signs; we just need to be open to them. I still needed to be reminded often that Aaron was around me and that I could recognize it.
Before I left for the day, I was looking at some sunflowers that I had planted; because they made me think of Aaron. It was the first time that I had grown sunflowers and I loved to look at them and think of Aaron. As I drove to Beaver Lake, I was crying my eyes out. Seems like the car is one of the places that it gets to me the most. I was driving and crying and asking Aaron, to please send me a sign today, I really need a sign to get through the day. " If you really are watching over me, please send me something today; anything, just let me know that you are there."
I arrived at Beaver Lake, parked my car and started walking towards the festival. All of a sudden, I started to notice something quite strange all around me. Every where that I looked there were sunflowers: a huge arc of sunflower balloons as you entered the festival, sunflowers on the scarecrows placed through out the grounds and all of the volunteers had sunflowers on their shirts. It turned out that the theme for the event that year was sunflowers. As I walked around and saw these sunflowers everywhere that I looked, I felt as though Aaron was all around me; as though he had placed each and every sunflower just so that I would see them and know that they were from him. Needless to say I was overwhelmed, but, I know that he had a hand in making everything fall into place at just the right moments so that I would not miss any of it. He works so hard to make sure that we are okay. I remember that day so well each year when I take out my sunflower shirt to wear at Beaver Lake.
I was getting ready to leave to work at the Golden Harvest Festival; it was the year following Aaron's death and I was still pretty much in a fog. I hadn't quite adjusted myself to always be on the look out for signs and I don't think that I was totally convinced that we all "get" signs; we just need to be open to them. I still needed to be reminded often that Aaron was around me and that I could recognize it.
Before I left for the day, I was looking at some sunflowers that I had planted; because they made me think of Aaron. It was the first time that I had grown sunflowers and I loved to look at them and think of Aaron. As I drove to Beaver Lake, I was crying my eyes out. Seems like the car is one of the places that it gets to me the most. I was driving and crying and asking Aaron, to please send me a sign today, I really need a sign to get through the day. " If you really are watching over me, please send me something today; anything, just let me know that you are there."
I arrived at Beaver Lake, parked my car and started walking towards the festival. All of a sudden, I started to notice something quite strange all around me. Every where that I looked there were sunflowers: a huge arc of sunflower balloons as you entered the festival, sunflowers on the scarecrows placed through out the grounds and all of the volunteers had sunflowers on their shirts. It turned out that the theme for the event that year was sunflowers. As I walked around and saw these sunflowers everywhere that I looked, I felt as though Aaron was all around me; as though he had placed each and every sunflower just so that I would see them and know that they were from him. Needless to say I was overwhelmed, but, I know that he had a hand in making everything fall into place at just the right moments so that I would not miss any of it. He works so hard to make sure that we are okay. I remember that day so well each year when I take out my sunflower shirt to wear at Beaver Lake.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
A Dragonfly visit at the NY State Fair
I have a couple of booths at the NY State Fair and it is always a very busy time with long hours for me. I finally had a break to look at any messages sent to me. My friend Melanie had just sent a text message to me and in it she said that she was so excited because she had just seen a blue heron; which by now everyone knows is one of the signs that my son Aaron sends to let us know that he is around.
I was sending a text back to Melanie, how happy I was that she saw the heron but disappointed that I haven't seen one. As I was actually composing the text, a dragonfly landed on my knee and was looking right at me. Seriously? A dragonfly;( which is another sign from Aaron), found me a midst all of the thousands of people at that fair?
Love that boy.
I was sending a text back to Melanie, how happy I was that she saw the heron but disappointed that I haven't seen one. As I was actually composing the text, a dragonfly landed on my knee and was looking right at me. Seriously? A dragonfly;( which is another sign from Aaron), found me a midst all of the thousands of people at that fair?
Love that boy.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Missing Frank
This heart warming story was submitted to this blog so that it could also be shared with you. Thank you Linda.
On January 2nd, 2010, my dad who had dementia left my house which was the coldest day in January. He had gotten into an accident and drove home, I knew where he had been and why he was there , I always knew what he was doing, I made it a point to know because he had slight dementia. He could still drive but my husband and I knew it wasn't going to last much longer. He came back home and walked into the house, my daughter was there and he asked her where I was... I was at my oldest and best friends house visiting. My nephew came to the house shortly thereafter and called me and said did I know papa got into an accident? Of course I did not he searched the house and did not find my dad. I raced home and he was no where to be found. We started to search, the troopers and the firemen. He was a retired firemen and they were glad and wanted to find him. I met a medium who had directed me towards the places where he had been. Unfortunately we found him three months later in Onondaga Lake. I was devastated. After he was found I had so many unexplained visits from him and answers from this medium that she could never know. I remember during the search I went into a storage unit. I went through all of them and was drawn to a specific one and knew he had been there. I was so afraid to look that my adult daughter had to look through all of them. The medium that I went to confirmed with out me saying anything, that he had been there. After all of this I have heard from my dad through this medium and her name is Melanie May. He had communicated things that are going on in my life now, wow it is astounding that someone can tell you what your loved one is saying it gives me such peace....Linda
On January 2nd, 2010, my dad who had dementia left my house which was the coldest day in January. He had gotten into an accident and drove home, I knew where he had been and why he was there , I always knew what he was doing, I made it a point to know because he had slight dementia. He could still drive but my husband and I knew it wasn't going to last much longer. He came back home and walked into the house, my daughter was there and he asked her where I was... I was at my oldest and best friends house visiting. My nephew came to the house shortly thereafter and called me and said did I know papa got into an accident? Of course I did not he searched the house and did not find my dad. I raced home and he was no where to be found. We started to search, the troopers and the firemen. He was a retired firemen and they were glad and wanted to find him. I met a medium who had directed me towards the places where he had been. Unfortunately we found him three months later in Onondaga Lake. I was devastated. After he was found I had so many unexplained visits from him and answers from this medium that she could never know. I remember during the search I went into a storage unit. I went through all of them and was drawn to a specific one and knew he had been there. I was so afraid to look that my adult daughter had to look through all of them. The medium that I went to confirmed with out me saying anything, that he had been there. After all of this I have heard from my dad through this medium and her name is Melanie May. He had communicated things that are going on in my life now, wow it is astounding that someone can tell you what your loved one is saying it gives me such peace....Linda
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Happy Birthday Dad
The other evening, we were going out for dinner to celebrate my husband, Tom's birthday. We were all sitting on the porch while waiting to leave. As we got up, I noticed that Tom had left his cigarettes and lighter on the table on the porch. I didn't say anything, figuring that either he left them on purpose or at least it would be less opportunity to smoke if he didn't have them.
We went to dinner with no mention of the cigarettes. During our meal, my phone rang, which was my friend Melanie. I could not answer her call and then thought it too late to call her back when we returned home. The next morning Melanie called me and said, "I tried to call you and I called Tom's phone too, it was a message from Aaron. He said Happy Birthday Dad, and he also said to say that he couldn't smoke." When I called Tom to relay the message from Aaron, he was thrilled and he said that he did forget his cigarettes and was bummed that he wouldn't be able to smoke!
We went to dinner with no mention of the cigarettes. During our meal, my phone rang, which was my friend Melanie. I could not answer her call and then thought it too late to call her back when we returned home. The next morning Melanie called me and said, "I tried to call you and I called Tom's phone too, it was a message from Aaron. He said Happy Birthday Dad, and he also said to say that he couldn't smoke." When I called Tom to relay the message from Aaron, he was thrilled and he said that he did forget his cigarettes and was bummed that he wouldn't be able to smoke!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
In The Garden
My friend, Melanie, held an Open Reading a few weeks ago. These events are held in a group and Melanie relays messages from those who have passed. It is a truly remarkable thing to witness as people that you don't know anything about receive completely validating information from their loved ones that Melanie could not possible know. Some messages pertain to long ago and some are as current as that minute.
Since I talk with Melanie daily and help her with these events, I usually tell my son Aaron; "It's okay if you don't bring any messages for me tonight because all of these other people need it more right now, and you can reach me anytime through Melanie." Well, I tell Aaron that each time, but I don't always really mean it in my heart. I love to hear from him any chance that I can. However, I do know that all of the other guests are there to hear messages for themselves, and quite frankly, any message that you hear; no matter who it is for, is such an uplifting experience for everyone to witness.
As Melanie and I were setting up for the event prior to any of the quests arriving, Melanie suddenly said, "Aaron's here and so is Pop". Pop is Melanie's beloved father-in-law and many times he and Aaron are together on the other side. They didn't have any specific message only that they were there with us. I was thrilled to know that my boy was there, that was all that I needed, just to know that he is around makes it possible to get through the day.
The Open Reading event was going along as incredible as always. Many messages were relayed and the people that they were specifically for were "awe" struck as usual, and the rest of the audience benefited as well. I love to attend these events because it just proves to me again and again that our loved ones really do still exist. As Melanie kept giving each message and she was approaching the end of the evening, suddenly she looked at me in the back of the room and said, "Gayle, Aaron says to say herb garden to you." I really wasn't expecting to hear anything more from him that evening especially since he had already let me know that he was there. But, that was just like Aaron, he always knows when I need to hear from him the most; even if I don't know it myself. I was quite surprised at the message that Melanie relayed from Aaron. It's always the insignificant mentions that really take my breath away. That day, I was feeling that I just didn't have much energy. I was excited and looking forward to the event that evening, however I felt very "unmotivated" during the day. I decided to turn on the TV that afternoon, which is something that I rarely do during the day. I flipped through the channels and settled on a cooking show. I used to love to watch these shows prior to Aaron's death, but I haven't had any desire since. I began watching this particular show and as the host was demonstrating her cooking, it kept flipping back and forth between her and an herb garden that someone was planting in her yard. This herb garden was so beautiful and I remember thinking to myself how pretty and unusual it was. That was it. I finished watching the show, got ready for the evening and off I went. I didn't even think about it again.
It's sooooo comforting to know that Aaron is with me; as all of our loved ones are, not only when my heart is hurting so, but also just hanging out with me when I least expect it. Just like before... when we would just sit on the couch and watch TV and chill.
Since I talk with Melanie daily and help her with these events, I usually tell my son Aaron; "It's okay if you don't bring any messages for me tonight because all of these other people need it more right now, and you can reach me anytime through Melanie." Well, I tell Aaron that each time, but I don't always really mean it in my heart. I love to hear from him any chance that I can. However, I do know that all of the other guests are there to hear messages for themselves, and quite frankly, any message that you hear; no matter who it is for, is such an uplifting experience for everyone to witness.
As Melanie and I were setting up for the event prior to any of the quests arriving, Melanie suddenly said, "Aaron's here and so is Pop". Pop is Melanie's beloved father-in-law and many times he and Aaron are together on the other side. They didn't have any specific message only that they were there with us. I was thrilled to know that my boy was there, that was all that I needed, just to know that he is around makes it possible to get through the day.
The Open Reading event was going along as incredible as always. Many messages were relayed and the people that they were specifically for were "awe" struck as usual, and the rest of the audience benefited as well. I love to attend these events because it just proves to me again and again that our loved ones really do still exist. As Melanie kept giving each message and she was approaching the end of the evening, suddenly she looked at me in the back of the room and said, "Gayle, Aaron says to say herb garden to you." I really wasn't expecting to hear anything more from him that evening especially since he had already let me know that he was there. But, that was just like Aaron, he always knows when I need to hear from him the most; even if I don't know it myself. I was quite surprised at the message that Melanie relayed from Aaron. It's always the insignificant mentions that really take my breath away. That day, I was feeling that I just didn't have much energy. I was excited and looking forward to the event that evening, however I felt very "unmotivated" during the day. I decided to turn on the TV that afternoon, which is something that I rarely do during the day. I flipped through the channels and settled on a cooking show. I used to love to watch these shows prior to Aaron's death, but I haven't had any desire since. I began watching this particular show and as the host was demonstrating her cooking, it kept flipping back and forth between her and an herb garden that someone was planting in her yard. This herb garden was so beautiful and I remember thinking to myself how pretty and unusual it was. That was it. I finished watching the show, got ready for the evening and off I went. I didn't even think about it again.
It's sooooo comforting to know that Aaron is with me; as all of our loved ones are, not only when my heart is hurting so, but also just hanging out with me when I least expect it. Just like before... when we would just sit on the couch and watch TV and chill.
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