Aaron's Mailbox-His spirit lives.

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This is a place where I hope that as you read about my miracles that you may want to share your stories as well. Every validation no matter how grand or how small will lift your heart. Please leave your comments or email them to me at gayleguadagnolo@gmail.com , and I will share them too.

My husband and I were living the ultimate American dream. We had a wonderful family and were proud parents of four beautiful sons. We were so busy enjoying and living life. It was springtime and everything was a buzz as we were making final plans to support two of our boys; who were members of the Syracuse University Men’s lacrosse team, as they competed in the National Championship Games. Then without warning our lives were shattered. Everything that we knew and trusted was ripped from our grasp leaving this unimaginable gaping hole. In the spring of 2008 our son Aaron was killed in a motorcycle accident.

At that time I was not convinced by any stretch of the imagination that there was anything after death, but I also could not accept that he was taken from us. I knew that I had to find a way to fix this horrible tragedy, but how? The hurt was indescribable. I just could not get my head around that this was it, he was gone. How could that be? He was our son, he was supposed to be with us, we were supposed to take care of him and protect him. This pain was too much.

A few months after Aaron’s death I met a Medium, Melanie May and as we later learned, our meeting was completely orchestrated by Aaron. I was reluctant to trust in the abilities of a medium but on the other hand, I would do anything, take any risk to try to get my son back in anyway that I could have him. When I met with Melanie, she told me things that changed my life completely again. She told me things from my son that no one else could know. She told me specific thoughts that I had had about a book that I was reading, and she described in detail the plaque that his dad was making to honor his life. When speaking on the phone she told me right down to the color of the clothes that I was wearing, where I was standing at the moment and the description and color of the coffee cup in my hand. The messages from Aaron that he told Melanie to relay to me were specific and current. He told her to tell me these things so that I would trust that it was really him, and that he was still with me only in a different form. This experience was so foreign yet so very consistent with his personality and his way of doing things. Aaron was always bigger than life. You knew he was there even before he entered the room. With Aaron, if you knew him, you got all of him, all great big 6’3, here I am package. So, his methods of getting his messages to me and the things that he told Melanie were as if he were right there in the room with me. He was so insistent and demanding at times that Melanie would start to shake if she tried to put off his requests for her to call me.

Aaron told us that there was a much bigger picture to all of what has happened. Part of this bigger picture is that I would write about my miraculous journey, to help others to know that our loved ones are still with us, only their physical life ends. My journey of miracles has happened so that I could know that my son is still very much with me and with us all. I have documented each miracle and message, they are true and as they happened. Many times I would doubt that this could really be happening, thinking that I have made up each message because it is what I so desperately wanted to hear, only to receive the next validation proving to me again and again that he is there.

I have found my son again, or I should say that he has found me and at his insistence I have opened my heart and my mind to this different world.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Keep Believing

Well it's been pretty quiet around here. Not many messages from my boy. However, that might not be exactly true. I do know that he sends messages to me all of the time; it's me who is just not receiving them.
So, it is now more important than ever to keep believing. This is when I need to take a moment to look around and notice him. Soak in all of the things that remind me of Aaron. This is when I am so grateful that I work with Melanie and can talk to the many different people that call her office each day, sometimes telling me their stories or just sharing their need to connect with their loved ones. This is what keeps me going. The stories that I hear, the messages that they share, may not be specifically from my son to me, but they lift my heart and my spirit just the same. Yes, I am reassured again today, that our loved ones are still with us.

Monday, June 6, 2011

The Wedding

Our niece was married in a most beautiful event this weekend. Everything was perfect. Family and friends were there. Sometimes its so hard to imagine these milestone events in our lives knowing that Aaron will not be at them.
The morning after the wedding were sitting outside of the hotel having coffee with many of our family and enjoying the beautiful scenery of the lake. As we sat, a blue heron flew back and forth in front of us. The heron flew back and forth, over and over repeatedly as if wanting to make sure that none of us missed him. The blue heron is the bird that Aaron sends to us to let us know that he is there.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Aaron Sent A Dragonfly

Friday, May 20 was the third anniversary of Aaron's death. Not a day that I wanted to even acknowledge. My friends Melanie and Linda came over and Melanie did a reading for me; I don't think that she had much choice because Aaron was all over her. As she walked into my house she said in a very deep voice which was not her own,"Hey Mom." Those are exactly the same words that Aaron spoke when ever he walked through door and its the one thing that I ask him for each day; to say those words. As I looked at her as she came through the door her legs looked enormous; as though they were three times her normal size. She was walking just like Aaron. Melanie said that she felt just like him again- this had happened one time before. That is soooo amazing.
As we were sitting on the deck at my house Melanie looked past the pond and into the woods and she said, "I see Aaron standing there in the woods and he is waving to us." As I looked into the woods wishing that I could see him with my eyes I said; which I thought was to myself but wasn't, "Come over here Aaron, come next to me."
The next thing we knew a dragonfly came straight towards us, fluttered around Linda's head for a second and then landed right on my finger. This dragonfly turned its head and looked directly at me. It stayed and stayed; even as Linda got up, went into the house, dug out my camera and came back to take the picture. The dragonfly never moved. Melanie said, "You asked Aaron to come over here; next to you and he is letting you know that he is".
The dragonfly is one of the things that Aaron sends to me to let me know that he is around. Often a dragonfly will follow me all around my yard, staying either level with my head or right in front of me as if leading the way knowing where I will go next. I know that he sends the dragonfly because I can feel it and he has told this many times to my friend Melanie (who is a medium) .
Even when we are missing them the most, we only have to settle our brains and open our hearts to recognize the signs that our loved ones are all around us. Aaron works very hard to make sure that I "get" his messages and that he is never really far away. I am so grateful for that.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Daisey !!

A stray kitten has shown up at our door. We are not a cat family, so I wasn't exactly sure what to do. The cat hung around no matter how much I tried to ignore her. I knew she was hungry but was instructed not to feed her because she would never leave. Well, I could only hold my ground for so long and then I just had to feed her; poor thing.
I told my friend Melanie (who is a medium) that a cat had shown up and she said that she is a grey tiger stripe cat, right? Of course! She also said, "Guess who sent the cat to you?" If Aaron sent the cat to us then there is no way that I can turn her away.
I was thinking of names for the cat and coming up with all of these sentimental names because of Aaron. When I saw Melanie the next day, she said that the cat's name is Daisey.
So there you have it! (I'm taking her to the vet today, I think that she is moving in)

I hope that as you read about these messages that I receive from the other side, that you will be inclined to share your own stories here as well. Every story of how our loved ones live on, is so inspiring to us all.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mothers Day

Holidays don't have the same meaning as they used to and Mothers Day is now at the top of the list. A day to celebrate my blessings of being their mother is bitter sweet when one of my children is no longer with us.

I receive messages frequently from Aaron so on Mothers Day I was privately hoping to hear from him either through my friend Melanie May or something that I would "get" myself. The day went on and I did not receive any signs from him and my heavy heart grew heavier.

When ever I am talking to Aaron; in spirit, I say to him. "Don't ever stop sending me messages. You know that I need to hear it over and over again. Once is not enough for me, it is never enough; you know that about me."

As we sat at dinner, my son Jeffrey gave me a card for Mothers Day. The front of the card said "Listen carefully, because I am only going to say this once." The inside of the card had the phrase "I LOVE YOU" about 20 times. The card also said Happy Birthday which was crossed out by Jeffrey and replaced with Happy Mothers Day. I KNOW that the card was from them both!

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Blue Heron

In one of my first readings with Melanie, Aaron mentioned that I would write a book about my journey. I was sitting at my desk today working on that book when suddenly I felt that familiar tingling sensation all over the top of my head. I immediately looked out of the window into the back yard and a blue heron flew past and landed in our pond. The heron is the big bird that Aaron sends to us as a sign from him. Wow again!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Hereafter

I watched the movie "Hereafter" today. WOW! I have been waiting to see it. It is very accurate in so many ways from the perspective of the grieving and from the perspective of the medium with the "gift". This movie could have been written just for me. Aaron woke me up this morning to say that I needed to do something fun with my friend Melanie. Perfect time to watch this movie. This is another instance that makes me wonder.... just how far back in time are things or events put into motion to be played out later in your life. Way too many elements in the movie that mirrored what I have experienced to be coincidence. I am listening and I do catch every detail, I would never waste the wonderful connection. You are amazing!